YOU NEVER WALK ALONE
BTS
2017 - 18 SONGS
♪ Intro: Boy Meets Evil
♪ Blood Sweat & Tears
♪ Begin
♪ Lie
♪ Stigma
♪ First Love
♪ Reflection
♪ MAMA
♪ Awake
♪ Lost
♪ BTS Cypher 4
♪ Am I Wrong
♪ 21st Century Girl
♪ 2! 3!
♪ Spring Day
♪ Not Today
♪ Outro: Wings
♪ A Supplementary Story: You Never Walk Alone
my evil days
now playing .. intro: boy meets evil
I never really liked crowds you could say I was a "loner." That changed when I entered middle school. In a way, every individual has their evil days during their middle school days. I loosened up a bit and stopped listening to my parents, I did what my mind told me to do and not what my heart wanted. It's like I didn't agree with anyone whether they were my family or my nice friends. The crowd of friends that would ditch class and go to the behavioral teacher were now my family. I told myself to stop being a "fucking scary cat," that I was my own person now. My relationship with both my mother and my step father stopped being a good one, my grades were to being a good student, to contently being nagged about how my grades were going to take me no where in the future. My mother always told me she'd look at me and see me working at the nearest mcdonalds trying to survive this shit hole called life. I fucked up I admit, I gave in into the evil ways of life. But, then I moved houses, and end up going to a more neater school than my old one.
my growing days
now playing .. blood sweat & tears
I don't think I've hit 'puberty' yet. Quite funny actually. I'm still in my growing days I believe, I tend to learn new things everyday but it's the path that you choose that comes with those growing days. Honestly these growing days just test your decisions and actions, even thinking. I'm going to be honest here I don't really double think what I'm going to do, that is when it involves my parents, I don't know. My middle school days painted an image in the eyes of my parents that I'll always be that child that does fucked up shit and doesn't really follow the rules. But to the outside world, I'm more than that.
my sister days
now playing .. begin
Them. My brothers are what make me begin, it feels like they are the individuals that still keep me grounded to this fucking planet, this life. Whenever I see my brothers, I see them happy and just being in oblivion. I see my brothers smiling and tell myself, "this is why you shouldn't go." Yes, they drive me mad and I think my voice has grown more louder because of them. They don't really listen to me, but hey I didn't really listen when I was baby kid too. I love them, with everything I own and am. We bicker, fight and hit each other, but we still love each other and that's all that matters. That I have them, making me what to keep walking along side of them.
my lying days
now playing .. lie
We all lie. That’s a normal thing that individuals do. I feel like I’ve lied a whole lot while in my preteen and, or teen years. It was as if lying was eating and sleeping to me. If my mother asked if I finished my studies, I’d reply with a simple “yes.” But in reality I didn't finish my studies. There were times I’d often think if my parents were really my parents, I didn’t think like them, it was as if I was adopted or a totally different person from them. They were strangers to me, they didn’t understand me. Nonetheless, that is my fault, I didn’t, couldn’t let them in. I wasn’t really the prettiest of the bunch, I’d lie I had this or that just to stand out. I regret that to this day, why couldn’t I just be myself no matter what other people thought? Would that have changed everything right now? Lying really isn’t the answer to everything.
my embarrassing days
now playing .. stigma
I have done a lot of humiliating things. That introduction really made the mood hit right? Haha. I really hate some things that I’ve done while I was still figuring out who I was, I’m still figuring out who I am, but now I’m less of a problem child. I promised myself I wouldn’t make the same mistakes I did in the past, I always feel guilt and sorriness towards everyone I met. I also feel upset over not protecting my brothers better than I should. I often feel as if every bad thing or event is because I'm here, I'm the cause why every terrible or sad thing happens to the individuals I love. Nonetheless, I try to make the situation end with a happy outcome. Also, remember, the thing is not wanting but doing what you have in mind, I guess I just have to change that want to “I do that.” You probably should too.
my first love days
now playing .. first love
I’m fond of love, the feeling of belonging and cherishing someone that isn’t your family member or friend. My first love wasn’t the boy asking me to borrow a pencil, or the little penny I found on the sidewalk, but my mother. You’d ask why, why your mom? My mom because she gave me life, she gave me what I have right now. She is what I call love. She’s what I want to try to be, strong, full of love and full of wise words. She’s somewhat the reason I keep trying not to make the same mistakes, she’s my mom. And no other woman, will replace the love I have for her. Yes we bicker and we fight but she has gone through so much more than I have, she nags me because she cares not because she hates me or doesn’t love me. She’s my mom, the first word I said, the first human I saw, the first one that taught me what love was when it was only us both and no one else. She'll always be, my mom. She still loves me with my flaws, she still loves me even though I fight back with words I don't mean. She was always there, she still is, and we fighting side by side.
my self love days
now playing .. reflection
Self love is the best kind of love.
my mom's favorite days
now playing .. mama